I feel like an idiot. I built castles in the air... it had been about two months since I saw my ex-boyfriend, but then on a whim I decided to see him. I had been fine for a month, I was learning to get over it and never wanted to get back together with him. Until I made the worst mistake of my life, and decided to go see him at work. I felt every emotion that I had toward him come rushing back. I realized why he was so special, and why every other guy seemed so irrelevant compared to him. Mistakenly, I thought that we were on the same page and we happy to see each other again. I started building up my fantasy and had hoped we would get back together. He didn't tell me until yesterday that apparently he has a new girlfriend. I'm not going to lie, I'm really hurt and upset by this news. I'm more upset that he didn't tell me when he first saw me, rather than let me believe that we would get back together. I feel like such a fool. I'll get over it though, I never want or need someone that doesn't want me also. I deserve SO much better than that. I went to apply for jobs today in Dallas and my new roommate Wo Dee will be moving in soon! We even got a special cookie delivery from Tiff's Treats and our best friend Shayla! I definitely will be eating my feelings later on and watching butthurt emotional movies. I'll be okay, I'm always okay. I just won't be focusing on love, truthfully that's the LAST thing that I want right now.